Ecclesiastes 3

Time for Everything

 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
³     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
⁴     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
⁵     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
⁶     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
⁷     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
⁸     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

⁹ What do workers gain from their toil? ¹⁰ I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. ¹¹ He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet^[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. ¹² I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. ¹³ That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. ¹⁴ I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

 

 

 

This is one of my favorite scriptures. Craig and I used it in our wedding and I used it for Craig funeral. I have more peace today than I have for the past three days. The dark days seem to come in 3s. On the third day I surrender the pain to the Lord and He brings peace beyond understanding. He is the foundation for my family and for that reason we will be okay. It will not be anything of this world. It will be His redemption plan not mine. I looked over this blog last night and the hard days seen to land here. We have had an amazing year of growth, healing and a lot of joy. We have depended on the Lord for those things. Each time I have thought "I've got this" the situation turns rotten and makes me look to Him for peace and hope. He has brought an amazing amount of love and joy to this home. We work through the rough days but there are more days filled with love and joy rather than tears and grief. Anniversaries are made to remember. I remember Craig final days and they were horrible. Some might think that I am nuts but I am looking forward to Monday. I am looking forward to celebrating where Craig lives now. I am thankful for the love that we shared and excited about the healing that we have received this year from the Lord. I am hopeful for the future.

Upcoming post: progress report.

PS on March 19th I am not apoligizing any more for where I am in my grief journey. If I am done with grief then I am done with grief. It has nothing to do with not loving Craig enough, it means I am done. When I revisit it I will revisit it. I am throwing the book out. I have grieved Plan A for 2 years and 5 months. Plan A was over October 4, 2010 when Craig was diagnosed. Everyone does life differently and I am done trying to fit this invisable mold. When I am okay I need to be thankful for being okay and when I am not I need to work through it. The year mark gives new freedom to our journey and I am taking it and running with it. Someone once said "The should's" in life are what get us in trouble. I am offically OVER "the should's" of grief this coming Monday.  

Craig, I'm glad to be able celebrate that you have received the gift of eternal life. I wish there were more years here with us but those are merely second compared to how long we get to live in the House of the Lord together. I love you and will see you again.